The Blog of 9dragonz

It's late and I'm tired and wish I had more time and energy to 'explore' more about EP.

It's been an interesting couple weeks for me. I've been up and down and all around emotionally, mentally and physically so not only am I tired from today, I'm tired from all that's going on in my life, my body, my head, my heart and soul.

Not only do I need to rest myself with sleep - I need to rest the 'rest' of me so I can feel refreshed and ready to live and maybe even thrive again!

I'm tired of 'making it through today', I'm tired of being depressed, I'm tired of being sad, I'm tired of being lonely, I'm tired of being scared, I'm tired of being frustrated, I'm tired of being hopeful then let down, I'm tired of falling on my ass and picking myself up again, I'm tired of struggling, I'm tired of complaining, I'm tired of myself, I'm tired of being angry and harsh with myself for having reason for being tired of everything else.

I'm tired of being tired!

I so wanted my life to be inspired and inspiring. I still do. I want love, laughter, joy, happiness, good health and wonderful experiences to fill up my days and nights. I want to feel happy and content in my heart and soul and to share THOSE things instead of drowning in all the things that weigh me down and hold me back and to fight so hard against them and/or give in to them so as to just end up being 'tired'.

Time to sleep - maybe my dreams will inspire a way to refresh my life.